I want to first start by saying, do you boo! No judgement here if you drink or don’t drink. This is just something I woke up November 1st on a whim and was like, yeah we need to take a little breaky-poo.
Am I stopping drinking forever? hell no. But did I need to set a little goal for myself to break a bad, nightly habit? Yes ma’am. The last time I took an entire month off from drinking was this last January. Feb 1st hit and I was back to my nightly “wine down.” I think i’ve figured out that if I don’t set these lofty goals for myself, i’ll just stay in the habit of nightly and weekly drinking, & I don’t want that for myself. I really paid attention to how my body felt this time around and what I discovered was absolutely eye opening.
October was a damn free for all. It’s my birthday month and if you’ve been following for awhile, you have probably picked up that I LOVE to celebrate it all month long. Literally anything goes. I celebrated with way too much champagne, nachos, chips, wine… all the things! On halloween Andy and I picked out Napoleon Dynamite costumes and I was excited to dress up and get a photo! That excitement quickly dissipated when my jeans didn’t fit. They literally JUST fit a couple weeks back. Andy lovingly suggested I wear a pair of his jeans to “fit the costume better”. I knew better than to try and slip his jeans on, but there we were…both standing in our closet with his jeans stuck at my knees. I look back at the photo and see the uncomfortableness all over my face. Feeling defeated, I dressed back into my favorite, stretchy yoga pants and poured myself a mimosa.
So maybe it wasn’t just a whim that made me decide to kick the alcohol after all.
WHAT I NOTICED MOST:
Ever since I can remember, i’ve suffered with inflammation pain in my left shoulder blade. Burny, achy, constant pain that was ALWAYS there. No matter how hard Andy rubbed it for me. No matter how many times I asked the kids to walk on my back. No amount of deep tissue massages would make it go away. Week 1 of November, and the inflammation was noticeably lesser. Sitting here right now, I can say that it is nonexistent. WOW. Now THAT is an eye opener.
SOMETHING ELSE I NOTICED:
I’m not one to weigh myself daily. or weekly. I actually have avoided the scale for awhile now. It wasn’t until I was on an emergency phone call with poison control for my dog Penny, & they needed to know her weight exactly….So on the scale I hopped to weigh myself, and then pick Penny up and weighed us together- deducted my weight to get hers. Never mind the emergency for Penny, I now needed oxygen for myself 😂 All this to say, i’m not sure I would have known the exact amount of weight I have lost during this If Penny hadn’t had her little accident. BUT, I am down 12 lbs as of this morning.
I knew I would lose weight doing this. It’s not rocket science! The amount of calories I was consuming…not only with my bevys, but Lord help me. Give me ONE cocktail and I’m “WHO WANTS NACHOS???????????”
OTHER LIFE CHANGES:
I made a couple other life changes thanks to some friends who encouraged me to finally speak with a Dr. I opened up a couple months back about how my mental health was suffering a little. I am a HOME BODY through and through. Leaving this house was getting harder and harder for me. I just didn’t know who I could talk to about it, and the thought of driving, & trying to find the dr. office was SO OVERWHELMING so I just didn’t do it.
I’ve always thought that I had ADHD, and I mean dating back to my childhood. Never hearing a word the teachers say. I don’t know how I passed my classes. Their lectures went in one ear and out the other. I could read an entire chapter and have zero recollection of what happened. When someone is explaining something to me, I’m literally thinking about anything BUT what they’re saying. As an adult, if I am concentrating on something and someone unknowingly interrupts my train of though…the world is over. I’ll never get it back. & that enrages me. I literally carried around a weight of anxiousness as I tried not to forget what I was doing or thinking. Constantly.
My sweet friend MB checked in on me one night and asked if I had spoke with anyone about it yet. When I told her no, she sent me a link to a telehealth provider. It’s basically a way to manage your health care remotely, from the comfort of your home. I set up an account and made an appointment with a Dr. that night. The next week I had my first appointment with my provider. She listened as I sat at my vanity in my pajamas. We chatted about all my options & ultimately she prescribed me a medication that helps with ADHD. It’s very new and I think the dosage needs to be tweaked a little, but I think we are on the right track and that is the GREATEST relief. I’ve also set up my first therapy appointment for later in December. I honestly have NO IDEA what to expect with that, but I’m curious and hopeful. Maybe I’ll LOVE it and keep it up, or maybe I’ll decide that it’s not for me. One thing I know, is that I can’t let the fear of the unknown hold me back from something that could be a positive impact in my life.
Listen to your body. Be gentle with yourself. Check on your friends.